bad times.

Damn, its times like this i feel so freaking down.

I wonder, do people care?
I wonder, do people hate me?
I wonder, what do people say about me?
I wonder, why am I anti social?
I wonder, why am I so careless?

But sometimes i think, i'm not anti social. I just feel more comfortable around some people more than others. Im sorry if i make people feel left out or if people think im stealing their friends :)

I really just wanna have friends i can consider like a sister I've never had.
In no time to come I would have a really close friend who is a dude. Haha. mummy would kill me.
But maybe in the future, if i'm lucky, maybe a friend who's like a brother i never had?

Yeah i really wish i had a brother.
Someone to bug me and tease me and get on my nerves like my cuzins sometimes.
But also someone to shield me from the world when i need protection, someone to defend me. TO SCARE BAD PEOPLE AWAY! To play with me.

But i have karina, and yes i am grateful for her. I wonder how she stands me. LOL.
I shall just go play soccer and get rid off all this bad vibes.

XOXO