Thursday, March 31, 2011

Happy birthday agnes and Happy early birthday Hazel~

B'div 2011 celebration lunch later ;) ;)
THE NEW COOLEST CREW TO EVER LIVE.
Sorry Poreotics but yeah they are cooler.

Quest even choreographed PARTY ROCK ANTHEM and they're even in it :D
heheheeheh.

Ain't Victor Kim just cool like that? ;D


Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Myyyyyyyy long lost but now found friend! Okay maybe not long lost.


I GOT THE PICTURE!

Love you, I'm here for you!
The same way I know you're here for me too! (not imposing anything, its just whenever I needed help, you're there so thank you! <3)
Now you're gonna hear a lot of vinita cuz well, I dont wish to drift apart again!
Thinking back, we drifted a few times but HERE I AM AGAIN BWUAHAHAHAHAHHA! <3

You aint no bad/ hopeless person or a lost cause.
DONT EVER THINK YOU ARE DUDE. OR ELSE I'MMA GAY CHICKEN SLAP YOUR HEAD!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I've been asking around for honest opinions and damn, I realized that I seem to be not a very nice person.

No offence to all those people who have given me your opinions, I really truly value them cuz well now, I can change accordingly instead of living in oblivion.

I must try to be a nicer person. But the inner child in me wants to go nuts! GRR. I must try to be a better person!

Anyone likes arcades?


HI CLARE! GIVE YOU BUBBLES! DONT BE SAD!
EVERYONE LOVES BUBBLES!
What happened to you today? 8D

AND WHY YOU PEOPLE END TRAINING SO FAST? I haven't played in ages I bet you can totally pwn me at table tennis already.

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OKAY. So today was quite a good day in school :D
I was too tired to think about anything so I just went to school, studied, kinda crapped around and TRAINING.

CHEM SPA FAIL. Around 45minutes of stirring Sulfuric acid and Copper Oxide and I still couldnt get the blue solution. Just anyhow filtered, heated for a minute and let it rest. CRYSTALS PLEASE BE PRETTY!

I realized, SEC 3 LIFE IS MAKING A LOT OF PEOPLE EMO. Grr. WE SHOULD ALL JUST GO OUT AND PLAY ONE DAY!

But nobody I know loves the arcade like I do :(
ARCADE LOVERS, IF YOU EXIST PLEASE LET ME KNOW SO YOU CAN BRING ME ON AN ARCADE DATE TO PLAAAAAAY LIKE MAD.

Training actually woke me up. Ms Neo is playing me pretty often again :)
I'm getting my gameplay back. Just need to work a lot on those lob passes of mine. My weakness since C Division grr.

Damn I should go sleep since I have slept only for 9 hours since monday. And now its the end of tuesday! CLOSE TO 24 HOURS WITH 9 HOURS OF SLEEP!

Byebye and goodnight!
BYE CLARE!

Monday, March 28, 2011

:(

Is that really the impression I give off?
I'm trying to defend myself but nobody believes me. Thanks :(
I'm really not a bad person. Well thats just my take.

At least today i felt like someone actually was on my side and believed me, my friend for 9 years :)
Even though we fell apart over the years, when I talk to her again I still believe that we are close friends. Just need to spend more time with her thats all. I'm sorry I lost touch with you and yes I really do miss you. And today's freak accident of "speak of the devil" just scared really made me panic but thank you for being there. You really dont know how much it meant to me knowing that someone still has faith in me being me :)

Gosh I sound like a friend-less loser but just know it meant a lot to me when you didn't gimme the ._. face :) I've been seeing it a lot lately! hahah.

I really wish I could post a picture of us right now right here but.. The picture is kinda on your facebook profile which you de-activated but no problem-o. You know who you are <3

But I'm gonna keep coming back with a smile on my face as much as I can keep it there so BWUAHAHAHAHHAAH.

Okay so now I need to go and rush literature and chemistry and Amath and a whole shitload of homework.

Why cant time just stand still and I can just take a break from all the work and live my life a bit. Its been a long time since I've gone out with friends.

Goodbye Dimmy.
Sorry for being so emo recently.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Idk.

Okay a bit emo but its been on my mind the past week.

Are most of my relationships with people surface relationships? I wish to be able to confidently call someone my best friend and know that there would be at least one person who would listen to my stories and help me out during times of trouble. People just give me the ._. face a lot when I talk about issues and stuff.

The only person who has stuck by me, listened to all my stories, taken my crap, gone through ups and downs with me are my mother and I really owe it all to her. She's truly my best friend even though sometimes I get so agitated with her or I piss the hell outta her.

Is it me or is it the people I'm around? Is it me who gets terrified when I'm close to someone? Cause something I realized is that whenever I get extremely close to someone and I'm always happy to be around them, we end up drifting apart. Happened many a times and I always get pulled down because of that.

I think its me but i dont know. I will find someone someday. I will patch up relationships to the best of my ability. I will try my best to be a good friend. I'm sorry to all my friends.

I'm admire my sister's relationship with her friends. Her friendships are never surface friendships but they run deep. Especially JAWS. Even though they all parted schools and one even went overseas, they talk like they see each other everyday. I really look up to their friendship.

I want to go back to when i was in primary 6. When I could always rely on my group of 10 and they were my best friends. They were my source of comfort and source of joy, always there for me and playing during recess and there for me when I was facing problems. I miss how we used to be. Now i'm so confused. damn.

WHEN LEE'S IN THE HOUSE YA'LL DROP IT LIKE ITS HOT

I was really worried for Lee cuz I thought we were in a big mess but towards the end, I realized, NEVER EVER DOUBT. As long as you work hard for it, You'll see results.

Thank you Lee committee for all the experiences this year. We missed championships by a small bit this year but now that we know which levels are are weak points, we'll work harder next year :D

NICE JOB LEE <3 OUR ENERGY AND OUR DANCE WAS (Y) TTM!
I havent blogged about a lot of things!

I thought mission make friends during Synapse failed but not quite. After synapse, on the group, I sorta kinda made quite a few friends :) Not close to anyone but still, I have new friends :)

And now i realized got quite a few people hating on me. I'm sorry people that i did something to.
People who I DONT EVEN KNOW AND ARE HATING ON ME. Dude whats wrong with you? LOL.

Now i have to rush homework but I'm too lazy to rush it up. GRR.

And I realized over the years, People have been getting really really bad impressions of me. People have thought I was cold, scary and now the last I;ve heard, I give the impression of an angry person. ARGH. WHY VINITA WHY?
Idk what to do with me luh. LOL.

I got another dance project after sports day today!
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1930285783808&comments

I'm gonna dance for my cuzin's wedding with the guys. TERUN YOU DIE DIE HAVE TO DO IT. OR ELSE.. heheh.

Okay not so good mood. I'mma go off.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

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I wish I had someone to talk to right now! :X

Monday, March 14, 2011

My trip to ACS!

Whats up babeh.

Synapse dry run was pretty fun :)

Except for the fact that I had a cool looking partner at first who then, almost last minute, they changed my partner to a no show sec 2 :(

I asked some people and they say he's a dun crazy guy so yeah, I HOPE YOU'RE FUN AND EASY TO TALK TO!

Kinda awkward there too cuz well, idk how to make friends, what more, WITH GUYS! GAH!

Everyone split to their stations with their partners but well, I NO PARTNER!
So Grace sat there with me for that one hour or so before the GLs came :)

Then played the game. It was pretty hard.. Gotta amend that.

And someone said i was flirting but i still dont think i was :P BWUHAHAHAHHAHA. I cant help it, he was cheating on my game! Had to make him stop so I kept telling him not to cheat :P

Then went straight back to barker instead of going to next station and crapped around with Deanna. We were locked out of the lounge btw :(

1) Filmed music video
2) Toured the campus ourselves, well part of it.
3) TOOK THE LIFT! (she's more of a badass than me)
4) Pretended to be pissed at each other to scam the others (worked on a few people heehee)

So yeah, halfway through I just ended up playing with THE PLPB PREFECTS CUZ WE'RE COOL LIKE THAT. heheh.

Next Saturday is the real Synapse.
PARTNER PLEASE DONT BE A NO SHOW AGAIN. I WOULD BE SUPER EXTREMELY SAD :(
LIKE, NO JOKE. SERIOUSLY.

Maybe I'll get the courage to make friends then :)

<3

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Thank You


Wow today was an okay day all the way until towards the end.

FINALLY BACK IN TRAINING. No matter how much I was unprepared, i can truly say, I was happy to be back in business!
Doing all the drills and passes and just being back in the team and knowing I have something to work towards :)
But competition is stiff as hell this year for main team :X
And vinita no size advantage but wth man. heehee.

Did team appreciation then coach talked a bit.
Ouch. Yes, she practically told story of my life. Convince parents who dont allow for some trainings, she said studies arent completely everything or else we'll just be nerds (or something something like that), busy schedules (she did manage to mention prefects and extra school based events ._. )

Coach, its not that we are not dedicated but yes studies come first. And all these extra stuff like math and english, we are forced. I really want to make it to main team. What I felt last year, yeah, it sucked so badly I dont want to feel that way again. I really am willing to work hard if given the chance. Yes I admit I was not performing last year and I am kinda "rusty" in ways but I want to train! I want to be back on court playing competitive. I hope you'd give us a chance instead of just blacklisting us like that.

Anyway, boy was I mad. As in angry mad, not delusional crazy mad :P

My eyes even like turned red. Thank you team for caring for me. Vinita just overthinks stuff sometimes. And i dont wanna re-experience last year again. yeah.

Then i went home, sat in my room and red the team appreciation note and well *whispers* I was so touched at the note and at my team mates that a tear trickled down my face.

Everything I worked for in netball, i thought nobody realized but after reading that, it really touched my heart and it was an ENORMOUS motivation for me to well, PROVE ahem wrong. I hope i can ^^

Thank you a lot a lot guys.
Even though I'm really bad at expressing myself and vocalizing how I truly feel, I love you guys.
That note is really really huge motivation for me and it's really comforting that people know I work hard. I'm carrying that note everywhere I go now

To both the juniors and my teammates, Love you lots and lots and thank you berry the much!


Sunday, March 06, 2011

Help!

I wish to cut my hair really really short to the extent that I no longer need to tie it up. You know why?

Cause I look extremely ridiculous with my unruly hair that I only know how to do in one hairstyle. That one hairstyle is now failing me and looks terribly terrible.

Wouldnt be easier to just chop it all off? ;D
I've been wanting to do it since primary 6 but never got the guts.

But I'm self concious! What if people laugh at me and everyone tells me i look terrible?!

It aint like I can wear a hat to school~

I shall wait until the exco results are out then I'll make my decision to cut my hair or wait until after O levels to cut!

If there are still people who check this blog, help me out? To cut or not to cut?

Saturday, March 05, 2011

My heart would melt



Don't wanna be lonely I wanna just fall in love. I love you, so won't you come in to my heart

Oh yeah (oh oh follow me follow me) oh yeah (oh oh follow me follow me)
I need you girl (oh oh follow me follow me) 널 사랑해 oh oh you you you

The guy you like is the worst guy I've seen ever
It's frustrating (hey). It's a sticky situation (she played u). Why don't you know he's a player baby

Why are you a fool and living your life being tricked. It's obvious that you're going to be played and end up crying in the end.
Why do you love with your eyes closed and ears shut girl.
I oppose that man, he's not the one. Come to me and don't believe in him.

Fall in love with me. Let us fall in love. Open your eyes
So won't you come in to my Come in to my heart

If that guy betrays you, I'll beat him up. If he doesn't take care of your anniversary date, I'll do it instead.
I'm the complete opposite of him, but you don't have to worry so follow me follow me follow me follow me oh girl

Because I thought you'd hurt, I couldn't say anything. If you like it, then I'll like it too.
But I can't bear it any longer to see you get hurt.
When he drinks, he changes and he has too many girls aside from you.
Why do you love with your eyes closed and ears shut girl.
I oppose that man, he's not the one. Come to me and don't believe in him.

Fall in love with me. Let us fall in love. Open your eyes
So won't you come in to my Come in to my heart

Follow me follow me. Trust only me and follow me. You're my l.o.v.e l.o.v.e. I only have you.
Girl I wanna be wanna be the love you wanted.
So I believe I believe oh! I believe I believe L.O.V.E LOVE

You the one I love, I want to place you in my heart and if you want, I'll hug you.
Fall in love with me. Let us fall in love. Open your eyes
So won't you come in to my Come in to my heart.


Wouldnt your heart go to the guy who tells you something like this?